!! The Way To .. Learning

Some times I wish to be able write and speak by English freely, and read too, considering I read to much and   suppose I finish all Arabian books and waiting ! , any way that’s not our problem now.   the main problem is  when I try to make that happened , I face a lot of trouble and not just this

 I feel disappointment from my self also

specially when I talk to some one and suddenly stop for no reason because I don’t remember or find meaning that word to describe  , what I do usually in this case ? just speak that word  by Arabic

 and hope the man who I talk to be understand , this situation  repeat every day when I talk to

my colleague in my work

the main cause is I don’t feel confidence and haven’t more of word or the basics to turn up

 what I say to regular and normal phrase , I am not feel ashamed to admit it , the most of time I fear from anyone to mock me

but I decided from along time ago the rule number one is don’t stop any way , some day

you will to be able speak fluently and describe what I feel by write it

I just  did try it , regardless the mistakes , I saw that is the time to  break that wall  from my side

Eventually , so sorry for my bad English , by the way i used google for two or three word when I was write !

see you ^_^